You know, I haven’t blogged, or been on any form of internet in a long time. But i feel there are some things i should get off my chest. Its like… I look around me and all i see is chaos. So many people feeling despair or sadness. Including me. I also find it amazing how you can love someone no matter what shit they do to you. Some people go through physical abuse for the people they love. Some people mental. I really could care less now honestly. I’m worried about the future. I’m worried about my job. I’m stressing over alot and it just seems to keep getting worse. I have to sign up for anothe math class for a college i might not even get into. And i have to take the ACT again. Right nw i really just feel like breaking down and crying. I have no one to talk to. I feel trapped inside my own mind.
Thanksgiving was the shittiest it’s ever been. First i didn’t spend it with related family. I didn’t hardly eat anything. My mom decided I have mental issues and called me a bitch. And my plans got ruined. I sat in the cold and rain getting drenched for twenty minutes.
My hours at work are getting shorter and shorter.
On the bright side I went to a show yesterday. The second one i’ve ever been to. It was pretty awesome until A Day To Remember came on. I crowd surfed for the first time. Avoided mosh pits and bought booty shorts haha.
I wish I lived with my aunt Lisa. She’s the only one i can really talk to. My mom really couldn’t care less and doesn’t want to hear about my life anyway.
I really hope things get better. Just 5 more months and i’m gone. The possibilities are endless. And i plan on getting far away from here. From this cluster of states really. Maybe i’ll finally meet a guy thats worth it and we’ll move in together. That’s all i really want.
OH! And I almost died today like for real. I was walking back from paying for my gas and some asshole came speeding into the gas station and almost hit me. It was scary as hell. Guess i should be thankful i’m alive.